Hey everybody, i havn't posted in a while, but i havn't been any better. Me and my dad are still having a ton of problems, and i have said some stuff i shouldn't have. i was sitting at work yesterday (thursday) and i was just sitting there. i must have had a sad look on my face because one of the nurses, the nicest one, asked what was wrong. i ended up lying, saying i was just tired.

i really was sad, even tho i had just had a good time. I was sad all day, me and my dad had a fight wednesday night, so thats why i was sad.

I am tired a lot, and dont sleep regularly. some nights i fall alsleep around 1 or 2 o`clock in the morning, somtimes 3 or 4. sumtimes 11 o 12 at night. i have thought about things i shouldn't.

Somtimes i think that i wish i was in a car accident. then i'd be in the hospital, and see if my dad even showed up. or things like "accidentaly" falling down the stairs. Is This Normal???

I don't tell my therapist things that go on at home, i try to cover them up, and keep a smile on my face. But then i feeel even worse.

Someone please help me.
<div class="foot">(Edited by rtrudeau on 07/16/04 11:49 PM.)</div>