Hmmm, schizophrenia? I highly doubt that, Comeclarity. I've been in therapy long enough to know that what I'm experiencing is a result of anxiety. But I agree with Jmo531-- be careful what you post on here. As a grad student of psychology, I can tell you that I have learned and seen just how much some people can take a suggestion like that to heart, and have it really upset them.

But anyway. I originally posted this to see if others had similar types of thoughts, and how they would categorize them.

In answer to the above questions-- I've been in and out of therapy since I was 18 (25 now). I have been with one particular therapist for a year and a half now, and am just starting to become somewhat comfortable with talking about these thoughts. I find them to be quite embarassing and shameful and have a difficult time disclosing them to anyone in person, even my therapist. It felt good to be able to type them out on here, and I think I will continue to list them in a journal, it might help. I have been on countless meds that haven't worked for me. I'm currently taking Trileptal (mood stabilizer for bipolar d/o) and I am supposed to start Lexapro tonight. My pdock prescribed this to me last week because I went through a 6-week depressive phase, and he wanted to add an AD to the mood stabilizer to help get me out of it. He said it would help w/ the obsessive thoughts, too. Of course, I'm afraid to take it. Go figure.