CE, if I remember right, your biggest problem with Madame T, the one that caused you to terminate, was that she wasn't supportive enough. I think there was a specific incident that happened, and you came right out and asked her to be more supportive and she refused, right? Hope I'm remembering correctly. Bear with me. I'm dealing with something really similar right now and want to share in case it helps you at all.

Supportive isn't exactly the right word, but I think it's basically the same thing going on with my T. I sometimes need "support" (contact) between sessions and he refuses. He will only say that I can send email any time I want--and he'll read it--but he will only reply if he thinks it's important, which he puts at about a 90% chance he won't reply.

Well, this is a HUGE problem for me. I need to know that he's there for me and he refuses to give me that reassurance. It isn't that I need to contact him a lot, what I need is that feeling that he is there for me. And he won't give that to me.

It's been going on for over a year and a half, and finally reached critical mass. I realized that if I sent him an email every day and he replied every day, it wouldn't be enough. Because I'd be living in fear for that day he wouldn't reply, and then everything would fall apart. Because it's a bottomless pit I'm trying to fill. I need an absolute iron-clad guarantee that someone is there for me, every second of every day, forever. Ain't gonna happen. I didn't get that as a child, when I needed it, and that train has left the station. I realize now that what I'm expecting from T is impossible.

So I finally realized (and told him) that he is there for me "enough". I'll take it. I feel very relieved, and depressed as hell. But I'm finally over the hump with this and on the way to healing.

Do you think any of this has any relevance in your situation? I really wish I could help you because you're struggling with this so.