All my life i have felt different than everybody else
i think im a crossdresser by nature i remember being 7 years old and wanting to dress little girls panties well having sex with my male cousing at age 9 (he was the same age) didnt help i remember playing the male role and then the female role guess what? I liked the female role better well after that nothing happend i told my cousin not to do it no more and we stopped like at age 10 at age 11 and 12 i felt atracted to boys mostly also girls but mostly boys at age 12 started playing with my butt masturbating my butt very confused liked sex organ but falling in love with girls by age 16 discovered masturbation penis masturbation up till now i was playing with my butt over dit it for many years dreaming about guys but falling for girls
16 to 22 too much masturbation no gf or bf my mind confused like both by age 25 had first girlfriend loved her very much
after her another gf 3 years later didnt home or transvestite
by then, soon as i hit 30 crossdressing was so strong i was buying lingerie dresses shoes very very strong for like 3 years
its been like 7 years since the last time i crossdress fully but i have partially crosddress when sister not aroung i m 41 now and hate my life i want to have a girlfriend but feel so insecure i dont think i m gay but crossdressing for so long makes me feel that way please anybody help want to stop