Your T is the only one that can really help you, but only if you let him/her. If you don't talk about what's wrong in your life, your feelings, etc., how can you expect any kind of help?
You need to drag up that courage that we all have and let your T help you.
Hang in there!
<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.