I don't do well in session talking about my anger. Usually one of my angry parts will start getting irritated and want to express themselves using profanity. When that happens I stop talking about the anger. Because I am concerned about switching. If someone is pushing to be out the one who is already out has to push back to stay. It's too chaotic and creates anxiety. You used the words " lose control". I think that sums up my fears, that I will lose control and not be able to get it back. Or be seen in a different light. I have spent a lot of years making certain that we behaved as "normal" as possible. I know how I want to be I am just not sure that is who I am.