I have read a few experiences of people who have mixed moods that cycle from one extreme to the other rather than both at the same time, I'd like to hear more about it if anyone cares to share.
I've only had 2 mixed states (diagnosed by 2 separate pdocs) but it was very different to my mood moving from one extreme to the other, it was both at the same time. Like I had this angry red hot energy inside of me and nothing I could do would ease it - from SI to vigorous exercise to trying to sleep. Depressively explosive, horny as hell, feeling dangerous, very sad but very mad all at once. With energy to burn. I've only ever lasted 3 days in this state before I've gone running for help and been drugged to the eyeballs. Is this typical of a mixed mood?
I have ultra rapid cycled before too - on antidepressants. My mood changed from one extreme to the other, one moment depressed, the next manic. It was a crazy ride and hard to convince my pdocs that it was not usual for me and I suspected it was the meds (I was in hospital at the time). Off antidepressants I have never cycled like that (I dont usually cycle more than once a year). Do people experience mixed states similar to that?
Both are unpleasant. Im interested to hear what are your mixed episodes like?
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