i know i will be posting a lot today flip flopping about what im going to do and not do ,what is good and not good, what i want and not want, and so on .i am really sorry ahead of time because i know it will be horrible for you all to have to rad my crap over and over again (maybe put me on ignore for the week if it gets to much) i think im just going to need to vent and get some help here about things and ideas.

this moments flip flopping is about my letter .i feel it is heart felt open and honest but at this point does it matter .it isn't a positive letter by no means. it isn't a thanks for everything you did for me letter. i don't know if at this point it makes a difference if she knows what was going on. do i want to spent my very last session with her bombarding her with all this memememe stuff or do i want to spend the time just saying thank you for what she did do for me and keep the rest to myself