Your situation reminds me of my ex wife and I. She was very emotionally abusive and she took advantage of my often weak emotional state. I eventually had to let go. I begged her to get help but she never would agree. It definitely sounds like your relationship is unhealthy. It sounds like he's being emotionally abusive to retain control over you. That isn't fair to you. Nobody should have to be treated that way. I hope things work out the way you want them to, but it sounds like he needs to start being more supportive and more respectful to you. Your feelings are just as important as his or anybody else's feelings. Hope you feel better soon.