Bridgie, I'm trying to piece together your recent posts. My heart really goes out to you. You're in a lot of pain right now, and it's okay to have negative emotions.

But, here's my question.. You say men only want you for FWB, yet this last relationship, you broke up with him because he was talking about moving. And now you're beating yourself up over feeling angry about his new relationship...and isn't it a long distance relationship which you wanted to avoid? Are you as afraid of commitment as much as you want it? It's a scary thing, putting yourself out there for the long haul without any guarantees it will be everything you hoped, wanted, needed. I can definitely understand both being scared of it and wanting it really badly at the same time. It's the fear of the unknown and what-if's that get in the way.

I think you need to take some time out from your "hunting," and focus on yourself. Define yourself. Don't let others' opinions of you, or your perceived opinions of you, be your definition. You are more than that.