I'm sorry to hear you're dealing with this too. It's pretty torturous.

The only thing I've managed to do so far to help the situation is to just try and stop worrying about how things will end up and take things one day at a time. I know that I can't figure out how I'm going to feel when the depression lifts right now, so it's not productive to obsess about it constantly. This is easier said than done, I know, but I was pretty successful using this mindset over the weekend. I still didn't feel that "head over heels" feeling like I used to, but I was able to be around my boyfriend without feeling irritated, and even enjoy myself a bit. Nothing compared to how I used to feel, but at least I had a break from the 24/7 hell that has been my existence the last few months. Right now it's all about small victories....

I wish you the best!