Why am I so scared to be myself?

I’m scared to live. I’m scared, I know I’m not going to make it. I’m not good enough for anyone. Sounds so ****** cliché but its ****** true. I’m not imagining these feelings they are ****** true. And no one can help me. No one can cuz no one ****** understands. No one understands me. No one ever will. Why cant I just sit in this corner and not do anything until its time for me to die. I prefer to be alone its so much better. So much better. Just sit there not move. I’m so bad. No matter how hard I try I can never be good enough for god either. And lets face it he’s tried so many times and this time ive really done it.

I’m all alone. I like it but I fear it. But at the same time I fear being with people.

How do I go on? How do I go on?