If you aren't in therapy....this would be a good time to start. When our "old stuff" percolates up and interferes with life, it's time to think about talking about the old stuff. Even if you have talked about it to a professional before...it sounds like you may need to rehash it. Talking really is healing and empowering....imo.

This sounds very painful, and I'm so sorry you are in this situation.

Take care of yourself, em