OK. It is roughly 11:30 Friday night. I am having a severe panic attack. The Zyprexa is not working. I'm in this weird limbo state between completely dissociated and knowing exactly where I am and what's going on.

Yet, I'm (for about another minute, I think) coherent enough to ask what people do in these situations. All the grounding techniques I know involve wiggling your toes, or moving around in your chair, or something physical to remind yourself where you are and that it's now, not then.

Thing is, it's my body that was assaulted, and that's the last thing I want to touch or feel right now. I'd rather not have anything to do with it. I also don't want to disturb my neighbors at this hour.

I'm going to go take another Zyprexa and try to get some sleep, but if anybody has any helpful hints here, I'm takin' em. Thanks.

Candy

There used to be a real me, but I had it surgically removed. -- Peter Sellers