Thanks Rose76! I said the same thing to my gf last nite. Im mourning but I don't mourn him. I mourn his physical body bc he was the teddy bear. All the love came from me not him. I loved the hugs, kisses & the sex but they were empty without actions. I was in love with myself.

I want to understand why I chose this man for a partner. This is my first dysfunctional relationship. I had a wonderful, normal & loving relationship with my son's father & we have a wonderful friendship. We broke up bc we grew in different directions. Even though I forgave myself for proceeding when he broke my boundaries, I still ask why I allowed it to happen.