You know what I think I may have figured something out. You said that you generally sit cross legged and curled up. My therapist told me once that when you sit with your arms crossed and your legs crossed over eachother that you are generally saying that you are not comfortable to be open about things. Maybe try to open your body language and uncross those legs and not curl up so much!! I know it's hard at first but it will get easier with time. Every since she told me that I stopped sitting that way because I wanted so badly to to help myself that I would try anything to feel better. Just something to think about. Try uncrossing your legs and not be so curled up. Maybe she will loosen up a little too!! Good luck to you!