Thank you for your reply.
That is why I am here to understand him and get some sort of sense out of everything. When we first met, I felt like he really "needed" me, had to be around me. Wanted to know about my day, details and such. His appearance was all covered up. With a beanie, glasses, coat. Which none of this changed, no do I think he was taking care of himself, bathing etc. Then out of the blue, he started to wear no glasses, bright clothes, he seemed like a different person in many ways. He would stay up all night, not care about my schedule...Then I brought up a possible date with someone else because he wouldn't answer any of my more serious questions about us. He then put up a wall and acted like we were just casual and brought up the other girl. I think I maybe scared him? I don't know? Just the abrupt way he acted and to be in a relationship with this person after days of knowing eachother...maybe it won't last, I hope not. I want to hate him, yell at him. I haven't said one word or reply to him. I said I love him, he knows and he threw it away. I wondered that him being bipolar would account for this, because I feel like no respectable person would do this to someone they cared about. I just have no answers and it kills me. I am trying to move past this, but he never answered me, just ran away into someone else and its like i went crazy! I am trying to justify that we had something, that I didn't make this up in my head. He looked at me that way...the eyes don't lie. Each day I struggle to pass the time, distractions aren't enough.