I got that feeling everytime and that's when I would SI......for exactly that reason.

I would lose track of my surroundings and just focus on what I was doing, so that I would know I was alive, because I couldn't feel anything. I always called it just going into a trance like state of mind. I'm sure there is a medical word for it though.

In some ways it is scary, in others I welcomed it.


Money changes people just as often as it changes hands.
~ Al Batt