I cycled in and out of moods twice a day or more for 3 months after quitting my meds cold turkey.

Gosh it was exhausting and confusing as all fk!!

I've only had 3 mixed episodes though, depressive and hypo symptoms simultaneously.

Man I thought I was losing my marbles for good and actually attempted to rip out some of my hair. It just broke though, need more upper body strength

Besides the destructive energy, I really HATED the CONSTANT skin crawling anxiety, I felt like I wanted to jump out of my skin, was really tempted to carve my leg open to let all the anxiety out! I told my brother and he made sure I had zero access to sharp shyt, so then I tried scrubbing it off of myself in the bath instead.

The only good part of my mixed episodes is that they only lasted 3 or 4 days.