I feel like the source of my deppression is that I'm bored with life. Since I was young I've read books, fiction, unfortunately I think that it was my love of books that led to my depression. When I read I feel like I'm on an adventure, but when I stop I'm instantly in a world of hate.
I watch TV,I see the news. Manhattan, that batman movie shooting. I grew up in Detroit everyday people were dying, so to look at the world in books and see the difference.
Because of those books I constantly find myself sitting up at night starting at the wall. I feel like I'm waiting for something but when it never comes that's when I get my worst.
I even tried to take my own life because of it, given it was a poor attempt but I still tried to carry out the act.