When I was mixed the best I can describe it is the energy of mania with the thoughts of depression. It was the most dangerous for me because I had zero impulse control. Both times I had to be hospitalized because I could not trust myself to avoid suicide. Both times I engaged in self Injury. Like trippin, I remember extreme agitation, to the point that I absolutely could not sit still. I had to pace. Caused problems at work for sure because the distress was fairly evident on my face. I resorted to literally scratching welts into my arms to calm myself. It was terrible both times. I will never take the chance of taking an antidepressant again.