It sounds like you are more comfortable after you session. T needs to learn from you what ques to take when you are talking about the abuse. I am sure that it will take a little time for you to openly talk through some of it. I can tell you that it does get easier the more you talk. It took me over 40 years to be able to start talking about something that I always knew happened to me. it has it took me another 11 years to put words to what I was told would happen to me if I told anyone.

Like you, I ended up writing about it first and giving the note to T. I went in to the first session after my note expecting the worst session in our long history together. The amazing thing I remember from that session is that T told me congratulations you have taken back your power from your abuser. When she said that I felt like a huge weight was taken off of my shoulders. I have often said that I walked into the session feeling like a wall flower and walked out feeling like Wonder Woman. The way I felt that day has helped me deal with the abuser and family members many times since.

My wish for you is that you too may some day feel that you have taken back your power from your abuser