Hi ruda121 and everyone,
I'm sorry to hear that it didn't go well yesterday. On the other hand, I'm very impressed & proud of you ruda121 & your clarity!
Please know that YOU are the only one who know's what's best for you, and it sounds like you are confident & can make good decisions for yourself!
The other day after writing to you, I started looking around online, and found this Psychologist, Dr. Ryan Howes. I really like the blogs he's written, and wanted to share his website with you ... I will need to write this in long hand at the bottom of the post, because I'm too new to this website & it won't let me include a traditional link!*** scroll down and look for the ***
Ryan Howes seems to have a very stable, healthy outlook! His blog is focused on information to assist all of us in learning more about what therapy is all about. It seems that most therapists do not clue-us-in on how things are supposed to work in therapy, and Dr. Howes' information is like a guide to all the ins & outs. Sort of like a book in a blog format ... "Everything you've always wanted to know about Therapy". Although he is a psychologist, he also shares his perspective as a client, and is very truthful.
I read thru many of his posts and he makes so much sense! He is definitely someone who wants to make things better for all of us!
Let me know what you think!

*** I am typing the actual letters you need to type in CAPS, and the 'signs' in lower case letters:
Website:
W W W dot PSYCHOLOGYTODAY dot COM forward slash BLOG forward slash IN-THERAPY
or ... you can just google: The name of his blog:
Blog In therapy, Ryan Howes, Psychology Today