I think maybe her T doesn't despise email, that she would prefer Granite to
speak in session instead of writing in email, but then never bringing it up. Obviously she read Granite's email and even printed out copies, because she does see how important it was. Maybe for lesser things, she might not bring it up unless Granite does. My T never did, and she read my emails, but if I didn't bring them up, she didn't either unless I was in major distress or something similar.

I do agree that maybe she needs to be a little more amneable to it for Granite, but she wasn't angry at her that she wrote it

GRANITE, deep down I just knew she would step up for this session, well I hoped she would. I think seeing the other two T's are a good thing. Do you have an idea what you want to say? Tell them that you have a very hard time talking (i would stress this point, because I think most T's expect people to have trouble talkign), and wanted to see what tools they can use to help you. Maybe specifically ask if they allow you to send emails.

Did your T mention that she received your phone call? I also agree that she probably sees you as strong because maybe you don't show much emotion? I know inside you feel so so much emotion, but what we show on the outside is usually much different than what we feel on the inside. I agree with your T that you are having trouble with such terrible feelings that your mother put upon you, that you think everyone (you included) feels that way about you, when it generally isn't true.

So, how do you feel about all of this?