I think that Healing described where you need to go. Master that, and then indeed maybe one lucky guy emerges from the crowd. Right now you are viewing guys as tools to give you the status you want. You are not viewing them as individuals. People in general prefer being viewed as individuals rather than instruments. Had you viewed at least one of those guys you have been with as a person, you would have described at least some quirk about him - something that makes him him. Rather, you described a sequence of events that as of recently has been bothering you in that it does not lead in the preferred direction. In the sequence you described, guys seem to be interchangeable and basically generic, and What you want for now seems to be to settle down with a generic guy. Wait until you want to be with someone who is at least a little special for and dear to you...