Raze, I haven't read through all the responses but you sure have capsulated me!

I have no sense of humor anymore. I objectively see my entire life as a failure. I hate to hear one shred of praise. 'I wonder why I sleep all day' I just think I'm better unconcious. (I can't spell, sorry, I didn't spell check)

Still, objectively, I know, you, I, mean something to someone. Our fog keeps us down. If you find a cure before I, please share cuz I'm not swimming anymore; I'm going down.

((hugs))

We can overcome!