Yes, unfortunately meds will change your emotional responses to unnatural. I have BP1 and have been on every med out there- trying for the last 20 yrs. to fix myself. Today I realized, as my dr. handed me samples for yet another new med that just hit the market, that I am not fixable. I will never be fixed- none of us will. We are broken and may feel 'happy' at times, but it will not last, and we all know it. So yes, this is your new normal. I'm sorry you are struggling with this horrific illness, and I wish you the best. I'm also sorry this is sad and angry and hopeless, but that is what this is and what I am and we are not fixable.