This could be triggering for CSA. I'm finding some difficulties in therapy. Sometimes, T (TT or former T, not LCM for those of you following that) will ask me a question about something that is difficult. I find myself hearing the words in my head and being unable to make my mouth speak.

For example, former T asked me how it felt to talk about some CSA.
My mouth said: "I don't know. I feel nothing"
My mind said "I feel slightly aroused but not in a comfortable way. Unwanted and unpleasant sexual arousal. And I feel deeply ashamed for that because if I'm getting a rise out of the story and I tell you, you'll think I'm just telling you some sick fantasy. I also feel ashamed because what if I got some pleasure from what happened? I liked it and that's messed up".

When I got home from session last thurs, I immediately broke out my notebook and wrote down the answers to the questions T asked that I couldn't get my mouth answer.

Does anyone else have this problem? Why is it so physically hard to talk about this stuff? How have you guys overcome this?