Finally seeing that I'm in a mixed depressed state and have been for a couple of weeks based on sleep patterns, being easily irrated, crying, raging, etc. it also points out that I was probably hypo in Nov and Dec, which lead to trying thee weekly housekeeping gig and pushing myself over an edge.

I want to sleep and can't, want to eat but not hungry, have panic attacks when my kids leave the house for any reason but isolate when anyone's home.

Husband is still as helpful as a box of rocks and seems content to stay that way until I "gripe" at him too much then he yells back. All the stressful situations and issues in our home, life and marriage remain untouched by him. So I sink deeper.

Hoping to be able to figure out a ride and co-pay for tdoc next week. In the mean time, meaningless TV and sleep when possible, induced by allergy meds sometimes.