I know you said that you are keeping your options open with 2 other therapists. I get that "out". It's nice to have isn't it?

However, you just made a breakthrough with your current therapist (so proud! of you) and I worry that should you bolt, you would just have to start all over with a new therapist.

i remember all those years you struggled to talk. I remember how painful that was for you.

I would never wish that for you again.

It's weird how we can forget/ignore/deny pain. The pain now seems to be the worst ever, but there is a record of what you went through on these boards.

We are your archivists of your struggle.

I hope you would stay the course here. You just bounded forward miles on your journey and your therapist was right there with you. Again, this is not a stumble, this is a leap.

I'm happy for you.

There will be emotions, and powerful ones. It's OKAY! You have some words now and over time you will develop new ones. Telling has a way, in its own time, of vanquishing shame.

You did a great thing for yourself here.

Glad I could be witness to it.