As some know, my husband and I were seperated for about 2 years up until about 3 months ago (note how this coincides with the exact amount of time I've been out of work...). I had hesitation about coming back, but was feeling overwhelmed as a single parent, and also still held this fantasy of having an 'ideal' family. Well, I come home last night from collecting kids from daycare and husband is disgusting, scary, drunk. A HUGE part of the original reason I left. This is the first reoccurrence of this since I have been back. I can't say he wasn't verbally abusive towards me, but he wasn't physically abusive at this time. From past experience though, I can now see that he hasn't changed and things will get physical again at some point. I regret coming back here. Now I feel stuck... This is most certainly not helping my depressive state.
I just needed to 'vent' for a moment. Thank you to all of you that take the time to show understanding and support without judgement. It is appreciated.