Hi All,
I haven't been on much at all, I think I stopped in once since Oct. Cannot remember where I left off. Anywho, here is the scoop my dad surgery several days after my birthday (10.29) for a blockage in one of his arteries-99% blockage, and he had already had a few small strokes, that is what tipped the doctors off. Anywho, he made it through swimmingly and that has been the turning point of my relationship with my parents.

It's been very strange, we have a totally different relationship than we ever have. I have a relationship with my mom that I cannot really remember having-well, maybe it was this good when I was very little. I am finally having happy memories of my childhood (I knew they existed!!!). She's been pretty supportive, helped me get through my daughter's recent unexpected kidney surgery...that still has me tense, we are still waiting on tests and results, and see if anything needs to be done again.

As far as the agoraphobia goes, eh...I am still having a really hard time, haven't been able to get help and this me having to do jury duty in June is just looming over my head making my PTSD worse. I just cannot see how I am going to do this if I cannot leave my house to get myself even to a doctor's appt....it's bringing up so much stuff about the stalking, and when we had to go to court with that...I've been having nightmares that Brian (the stalker) is trying to smother me in my sleep. I get through it, but sometimes ya know I think I might not have any hair left soon...UGH, it's hard, I cry, remind myself it's a memory and hold my ground. Guess that's good huh? If I cannot step forward I am gonna hold my ground!

So, that is where we have been at in our lil corner of the world. Hope everyone is doing well. Gonna go mosie the boards.

hugs Lisa