I think it does harm (and no good) to view things negatively, whether for a change or not. The mind is a terrible thing to confuse...and it takes a lot to change what negative was put into it. I would reinforce the actions that are good for me, the thoughts/thinking that will help me feel good and progressively better.
We have tried in years past to continue with good thought threads and frankly, they end quickly ... or they would. Now that we have these 2 new forums, self help and spirituality, we have a good opportunity to think better, imo.
I could not allow the situation you are living in to continue. I am allergic and it could kill me to try. I'm sorry you are having to put up with that, for whatever limiting reasons you do have.

Hopefully it will soon be cleared up. Please take your list and see what you can cross off as finished on it. We all have those lists, and it's called Life. I am working on mine today, too.
TC!