So on Friday my T offered me to apply for a job as a secretary for her husband and his team. They're child psychiatrists working in an hospital and I think I would like the job, but am still a bit unsure about boundaries.

On Monday night before skills group, she told me I had to apply earlier than she thought and we decided to meet today to go over my application, which I was supposed to write yesterday.

So I arrived at T's office at 10:30, and she was a couple minutes late as usual. But from there everything went great. She told me her 12:00 client had cancelled, so she offered me to spend some time going over what I had already done, until her 11am client arrived, then I'd go to her second office, re-write my application during her session with the other client, and afterwards we'd go over what I had done.

This time again she saw that I'm really struggling a lot with job applications, and that all those times where I told her I had tried but just couldn't I wasn't making anything up. I mean at one point she asked me how I would formulate one sentence and I couldn't get a word out... she looked at me, held my arm and gently said: please don't hold yoursel back, I see you're struggling, but we need to work through this if you want to turn your life around.
That really helped me... we spent more time than planned going over a first draft as her 11am client didn't show up.

Then she still sent me to the second office, so I would try to rewrite it all on my own. To be honest I only had to put the pieces we had prepared together and add a couple words here or there. But knowing my T was right next door really helped me calm down and make it.

When I finished I went back to her, she spent a couple minutes finishing her invoicing, and we looked at what I had done. She really complimented me on the few things I wrote on my own and told me that with that letter I will get a job interview.
We spent almost two hours on it, all of the time I was very tense, nervous, ready to break down, butmy T was really awesome and helped me through this. We didn't analyze anything, as it just really needed to be done and if we had spent some time going into details about why I was feeling this way, we'd still be there... and now I wonder why I didn't accept her offer to do it this way months ago!

And if I get offered the job I may actually take it. I mean, at this point the most important thing for my health is to get a job and move out! She told her husband about me, and if he asks I may gave vague details, (like diagnosed with BPD, but highly functionnal and I keep improving, no more details). She already discloses quite a lot about herself, so if her hsband is professional too I won't know too much about her. And I may not see her husband that much as he will spent most of his time in sessions. Right now I try not to overthink this too much, and just appreciate how much my T helped me today!