When I first wrote a profile, I was the exact opposite…I thought it would be cool to be different and I actually wrote to other people. But then I don't think I allowed guys to see my profile because I wasn't all that interested in guys. It's after I became mostly interested in guys (and started allowing them to see my profile) that I've started to have issues.

I seriously wish that I wasn't interested in men as they always seem to go out of their way to hurt me if they know I like them or online if I seem "weird". I just want to meet someone in real life but they all have unrealistically high expectations. And not just about looks.

And the only guy I've found and bothered approaching has pretty much stopped talking to me and acknowledging my existence. Now I know I'm not guaranteed an explanation, but it just bothers me why that he at least liked me as a friend and we really got along with each other and now I literally don't exist. I guess he thinks I'm some sort of terrible person because of my past (and probably present)?

All guys want is a carbon copy of whatever the present "normal" is. Any guy who says differently is lying. And if I just say "F*** 'em if they can't take a joke", I might as well just date girls. I just hope my preference changes back soon to girls, just for my own sanity.