That’s perfectly understandable. It is very hard to open up. But it is good that you realise this is preventing progress. That’s a step in the ‘right’ direction.

Have you discussed with your therapist *why* you hide your true feelings etc.? Discussing these might enable him/her to come up with some strategies to help you out.

For example, you could write how you feel (diary? Send them emails if possible? Print this thread?) & use this as a basis to discuss when you meet. Or both agree to discuss specific topics… Or have your T address specific issues (from the concerns you have) rather than a general “How are you today”.

I know it’s easier said than done, but there comes a time where it might just be worth spilling it all out. It is an amazing feeling when someone finally acknowledges and/or validates one…