Maybe instead of jealousy, could you use the feeling and translate it into something positive, like a drive or determination to better your own life. My Pdoc is a martial artist, which is something I only found out when I was googling info for my husband, and accidentally stumbled across all this info. It made me respect him even more, because he has this whole work, life, health balance thing going on and I really want to try and emulate that. Since I found that stuff out about him (he knows, I told him) it's made me pay more attention in therapy and really work at the stuff he's telling me and the homework he's set, because I look at him and see a place I want to be as well (I don't mean a place with him, I don't have those sorts of feelings for my Pdoc, I just meant a place in my life where things are in harmony and balanced).