This is a big and difficult issue we probably, at some time or another, face with our T. Being truthful. It is difficult. Recognizing this in your progress (or lack thereof) is a singificant sign that therapy has at the least, pointed you in some realization of self. This is good!

Maybe you haven't felt "safe" or a connection with the Ts you've been building ground with. Trust and fear of embarassment has really held me up in therapy. Luckily I really like my t. I told her that I haven't been completely honest with her about past trauma etc. She said that she felt this from me and was giving me my time to determine how far I wanted to go with my stories and feelings. But, telling her I haven't been completely honest was difficult, it was a changing event though. We have grown so much more trust and conectedness due to my honesty.

She always tell me, and maybe this is something for you to think about as well, if we continue to do the same.....we get the same result. And, if we keep things censured or in our own heads, we only have ourselves to bat them around with and there again, we get the same results. So, that said, unless you try the difficult road of honesty, you may never seek the results or the happiness you desire.

Good luck, be brave and take your time with it, it is a process and you can do it slowly.