I started suffering from Homoseuxal OCD back in December 2013. I've learned since then to use the "IDGAF" attitude when dealing with the thoughts. However, I want to know this, will the thoughts eventually subside if I keep going like this? Will I ever return back to normal? Before OCD hit me, I never once worried about whether I was gay or not. I never questioned that I was straight. I also used to watch porn so much that it doesn't phase me anymore. But in turn, I'd like to have a cleaner mind from now on. So I stopped. I know that I never felt feelings for any guys before. (I never had a girlfriend either, but I have fallen for girls before.) Another thing I used to do was I would sometimes do roleplay (purely using text) In a gay scenario. I didn't enjoy it and now wonder why I did that. But, my mind never got the OCD during that time either. So, why now? And will I ever go back to normal? Will I stop worrying and will the thoughts go away eventually? (Not the OCD, just the obsessive thoughts) If I keep my "IDGAF" attitude for a while? I don't want to deal with these constant thoughts and constant headaches because of the thoughts for much longer. I hope it goes away soon and I can just be myself again...