It just scares me to take anti depressents. I have taken many medications and had bad reactions to some. I know it is probably fine but it gives me so much anxiety now to even think of taking a pharmacital drug. I've had some pretty bad side effects and reactions to them in the past that were terrifying and uncomfortable. And now that i read the long term effects and see how it could have been what caused many of my problems. Like the compulsive habit started as soon as I took a certain stimulant and it is listed as a side effect. Trich and dermitillomania are side effects for them. it just makes it hard for me to trust any of these drugs. no one knows much about them and who knows what other health problems i could end up with from a new drug. plus i dont want to become dependent on them. i just cant go down that road anymore. i havent seen a counselor that does cbt. i could try to find one. my options are very limited as i have very little money and my insurance doesn't cover much. the thing about the biting, picking at my hands is that it is soothing. it stresses me so much to not do it and with everything in life being so stressful right now im not sure i want to rock the boat.