You made it! It isn't an easy process, but it should get easier with each session (it all depends on the topic being worked). The mind is a deep and unpredictable thing, so it can be somewhat of an adventure if you let it. There may be a few "Ah Ha!" moments, which really get you thinking and can really move you forward. Keep at it. It sounds like it is moving in the right direction for you.

EMDR - for those who say it doesn't work - is just like any therapy. It is only as good as the person who is walking you through it. Unfortunately, there are a lot of ill-qualified practitioners out there, and that is what makes EMDR even trickier for many many people. The approach is crucial and should be molded for each person.

Also, it focuses on trauma. One of the few therapies specifically designed for such things. Granted, when it comes to trauma, none of us even want to go to that dark place and begin digging out the nasties. It is a painful process, no matter how you really approach it - because you are attempting to move through and past that pain. It takes time and effort, but it can be a very rewarding experience.