My mom, who lives 1500 miles away has either done research or just instinctively knows how to take care of me. I am so blessed that I spend my summers with her- it literally feels like I am living a different life.

My husband won't research, ask questions, or even give me any leeway when I bring up this disorder that is MEDICALLY DOCUMENTED, I have endured meds, therapy and even hospitalization for, and he just seems to be in denial. I've been in mixed state depression for a couple weeks now, and he told his family (who knew everything from my six day hospital stay when they had to care for my kids) that I've been sick with allergies lately. Allergies. Technically, I have been sick with allergies. They don't make me scream and cry and not sleep or eat and isolate myself from the entire world , though.

So I understand your frustration, anger, and hurt. And the feelings of being alone and helpless. And like there is no support. That's why I'm on this forum right this minute.

Hang in there. Perhaps ask your mom to come to a therapy session with you (after clearing with tdoc) and tdoc can answer her questions and maybe educate her. I asked husband to and he said he didn't want to, because he didn't want to know how bad it could be. Since then he has asked to go, but he broke something in me with that and I haven't asked him back since. If he can't be bothered to read a web article or two, why waste my precious time with my tdoc on on him?