I'm an AvPD. It ruined my education life. I'm an average student, but I'm struggling very hard for my degree. Today my friends are in jobs and I'm still NOTHING. Whenever I come out to do something, I think 'Others are looking, and not liking me', so I go back, always keep going back, so I'm lagging behind.

I know that there is nothing negative the way others are evaluating me. I know it, but still it's hard to let it go. Its always with me. I want to say a word, then 'would they like it?', I want to start a conversation, then 'Would they feel bothered?' 'Maybe yes...' So I go back to save myself from embarassment.

Now I'm far far behind, alone. What is most frustrating I know the problem , but can't fight it.