Thank you both, to the both of you!
@gayle- my sister doesn't care & is difficult to talk to, especially when I'm telling her something I don't like that she's doing. It's futile to talk to her most of the time.
I've stopped going to therapy for the time being, because 25$ a visit is too much and my insurance won't pay for any more. and unfortunately meditation causes me to hallucinate

I want to be able to get a job so i can live on my own, but my ptsd and anxiety stops me