You are definitely not alone. And you are definitely not crazy .

I think most of us have been there with not wanting to stop. Self-harm is very addictive can sometimes feel like the only way to get through. Change is all in your time - no-one can force you to stop until you are ready.

I will say this though - I can promise you that there are other strategies out there to manage. You may not believe it now but there are other ways to cope. It takes time and work but there can come a time when you aren't dependent on it to get through. That you don't need to lie to people to cover it up. That you can get through a day, a week, a month without it.

No-one can force you to change and we will support you no matter what here - it is a fantastic place for support when you are wanting someone to talk to. But if a time does come when you are considering whether there are other options please know that they are out there