I'm hopping I will change in the future. I'm putting my hopes in meds and therapy, because, seriusly this life worths nothing. Lucky to me I don't think a lot and I'm always forgetting what I realized.
Why am I supose to have a future, to have a job, to make a family, to live and ordinary life? Why does everyone seam to want that and I just want to hide and be forgotten by the world. Living can be real cruel sometimes. It's stopping and not suffer, waiting for your useless life to end any moment or keep going on, planning pretendig you want something and suffer in double. Suffer because you don't want to do those things, suffer because of the stones life puts in your way.
Life is stupid, I'm hopping to see that light that everyone sees and makes them move, but for me...I'm just a stupid, stupid, stupid existence. Good luck in the search of the porpuse of your life.