Right, it seemed pretty cool. I guess that was part of how I rationalized the pain away. I didn't have what I'm having now in that relationship. But I've often felt, before this month, like I'm on the cusp of that deep satisfaction that I had in the good points in the old relationship. But I'm very curious how long contributing factors have been building on me: my social life has diminished since coming to law school (not that many law students don't flourish socially), my old undergrad friends have all moved on, I'm no longer the top of the class like in undergrad, and I've undergone a faith crisis. It's like there's little to hold onto. I don't want to have a pedestal girlfriend, but I certainly want that soul to squeeze through these years.