Today my therapist told me it might be better if I try therapy someplace else. He wasn't angry or anything but he agreed with me when I said it's frustrating that we're just going round in circles all the time and not getting anywhere. It's been five months, I'm still stuck in my way of thinking and his CBT methods aren't really working for me at the moment. I told him it's probably all my fault but he just said something like "or perhaps I just can't present the method well enough. I mean you're very smart and you're smart enough to argue against all of my arguments. Perhaps CBT just isn't what you need".
He said he sort of didn't want to give up like this but he suggested that we both think about the whole situation until next time we see each other and then decide whether or not we should continue or if I should get referred to someone else. He said I could either try another CBT therapist (someone who might be able to explain things better) or I could get referred to someone who practices something else, like psychodynamic therapy.
So, this is it. I need to make a decision. I'm going to be honest here: even though I've been thinking about changing to another therapist for months now I'm really scared of this situation.
Fear 1: What if I start seeing another therapist and it doesn't work?
Fear 2: What if I'm making a huge mistake by giving up on CBT and/or this therapist?
Fear 3: I fear opening up to yet another person. Even though I've been thinking about changing to another therapist for months (like I said) I guess I've sort of built up some sort of trust/relationship with my current therapist and it doesn't feel great just throwing that away. It actually makes me feel rather sad. In some weird sort of way I guess leaving would make me feel abandoned. Does that make sense?
Fear 4: What if I won't find someone who understands me?
Fear 5: What if no one can help me?
Question 1: How do I know which kind of therapy to choose? CBT or psychodynamic therapy?
Question 2: Should I even consider trying something else?
Question 3: What are your good/bad experiences with the aforementioned kinds of therapy?
Question 4: Any other thoughts?
I realise these might be difficult questions but I'd really appreciate some help. This is tough.
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