Thank you for the sweet thoughts. I wish I could just let go of the stress but so much of it is this unnamed mass that seems to have enveloped me. Part of me fears/feels like I just don't love her or that I'm just not attracted enough; another half really feels like this bad feeling is being propped up by everything else in my life right now or other issues. My usual self is able to weather stress, but this stuff is making me feel like I don't know my girlfriend, don't know myself, and don't feel a place in my world. More than that, I feel cloudy. That's why I'm going to therapy. My girlfriend is really awesome but I need help parsing out how I really feel about her from all of the thoughts, fears, and emotions of the past month.