I'm not sure about teh sleep because i take xanax at night and it wipes me out. The one thing I remember is teh feeling of "hey I dont need xanax anymore because I don't care if I wake up early". Also was staying up late but not all night. I am just really having a hard time accepting this dx. The lows seem so much worse than the highs, but my medication seems to address the highs so much more, and this just seems unfair and wrong. Maybe full blown manic is bad, but this hypomania seems better than depression. Oh and one more thing, I went on Match.com and looked up potential mates when I have been in realationship for 20 years and never had any inclination to look around, except of course I am in love with my psychiatrist. I guess that also points to mania because i knew I was risking her finding out since i had to use my eamil address which she has access to. I changed the password as soon as I came down from this.

Also, I was glad to be alone in the house (my partner was away on a trip). I am normally terrified of being alone which is why I sometimes think I am borderline. Anyway this time I was elated she was gone so I could have free reign on my behavior (staying up- looking at sex stuff on computer). Does that sound familiar to anyone?